+ not able to relate = fail seriously, youre pushing 26 and you act all neurotic and defiant/uncooperative at every turn. you copy paste 1000 pages of IM logs (pretty much literally) and try to spy on all my shit. absolutely zero regard for privacy or respect. on top of that you insult my intelligence by trying to lie about every little sneaky thing you try to do, even though its blatantly fucking obvious. then youre completely and utterly shameless about it until i get pissed off (i have a lot of patience, probably too much) then do it again once its 'easy' then you promise change but never deliver, you cant but it makes no difference after all these years you have all these expectations of me based on sheltered desires and cant open your eyes, you kick me when im down and try to give me false hope again and again and again but its always the same bullshit add it up, im done with this thing it was a mistake from the beginning, kept me alive i suppose but at a heavy cost. i set everyone up including myself and i couldnt help it but im so pissed off that i couldnt. i learned my lesson. i will never 'settle' again. nobody should have to, but being so different makes it hard not to. i can deal with bumps and fights but this was way more than that. problems are one thing. settling never works, especially when you have high needs ...i should just live on mars, things would be better there. i can just hang out with space dust. anyone coming?