Im trying to find reasons not to but at this point they don't exist. Reasoning Doesn't exist. so why should I exist? I want to die. I feel that I need to die. I need this to be over. It should have been over before it started. But it wasn't. Now it needs to be. Sitting here playing with it. My way out. Counting. Deciding. I can feel myself slipping and my will slipping. Ready to call for help. Too scared to call for help. Help me my mind screams. Die my heart cries. It it time yet? It feels like it is!!!!