Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by Anam_Cara, Feb 27, 2009.

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  1. Anam_Cara

    Anam_Cara Well-Known Member

    I thought i was going to make it, had a tiny glimmer of hope and now it's gone and things are getting desperate.. Im about to lose my internet and phone which are the ONLY two things keeping me alive right now, my only contacts to SUPPORT.. Im 50 miles from my doctors office in a place with NO jobs or way to be able to pay for the net and my family decided that my phone and net isnt important enough to warrant them keeping it on.. Im disabled right now, housebound, have no transportation, no funds, no job, only my education in one type of career and unfortunately there are ZERO people interested in what i do..

    i CANT lose my net and phone, my family offers me NO emotional, mental or spiritual support, just judgement, criticism and they end up making me feel a thousand times worse.. I have the love of my life whom i speak to online, as well as another good friend, and this forum.. it's vital i stay online and in phone contact, if i lose that and am stuck indoors 24/7 with my critical judgemental family im afraid i will break for the last time, ive dealt with 5 recent hospital visits, medical issues that are keeping me jobless and under family's thumb and ive lost everything i had, BUT the support of my love, and my friend, and this forum..

    I cant even sleep at night anymore.. just cry and have anxiety attacks.. it seems so cruel and unfair.. the 100.00 a month it takes to keep my cellphone and net on is such a small amount, about 5 hours worth of the work i am certified to do... just no clients.. one day's work would save me from having a complete breakdown if my phone/net get shut off..

    why me?

    sorry for the rant im just ready to give up dont see a way out of this now..
  2. mdmefontaine

    mdmefontaine Antiquities Friend

    i know how you feel about internet/phone being a last lifeline....let's try to figure out how we can keep that connection. is there anyway you can borrow the money from another family member?

    or, can you get referred to a therapist by your doctor, and possibly the therapist will reccomend to your family that you need this contact....

    or...can you search out a cheaper plan, maybe drop the phone, keep the net, you could even talk by skype for example, for free. or web chats...if you got a cheaper plan it might convince them to allow you to keep it.

    are you sure you can't get any job at all? if you had a tiny would pay at least that one bill...

    just brainstorming. i'll keep thinking. hun. you think too....gotta be a way out....xxxx
  3. Anam_Cara

    Anam_Cara Well-Known Member

    here's the thing, i only have 3 family members left who care about me and would help if they COULD.. family cant help me, or afford it.. having a phone is also a vital necessity for me as i am disabled and Skype cant help me in an emergency.. multiple reasons for having my phone and net..

    as for work, i WISH i could... im stuck in an rv in the middle of a desert.. only places to work are the rv park office that isnt hiring and the casino across the road which has no positions i can do... im technically disabled and havent been able to work for almost two years due to health problems.. the one job i can do and have certification for, i cant find any clients for at this time.. believe me i AM trying... very hard... to find work.. being stuck in the middle of the desert, unable to drive, and family cant afford to drive me 15 miles to the nearest bigger city, thats 30 miles a day travel time, when we have ONE vehicle and another family member has to use that for their own transportation.. well you can perhaps see why things are impossible in the moment...
  4. Rosenrot

    Rosenrot Forum Buddy

    I don't know where you live or the entire situation you're in - but disability services should be able to help you - not sufficiently enough to support you entirely, but at least you should get internet and phone.

    I think you need documentation of the disability.. I don't know the number for them either. But disability services should be able to help, try to get ahold of someone who can help, because this is one of those things where you have to advocate for yourself.
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