hi. i feel like i have lost my grip and i am desperately fighting this need that i have to kill myself. i have my plans worked out over and over and the only thing that is or was stopping me was this stupid lil voice in my head telling me that dying is too good for me and that i should stay and live continue to suffer. now that voice is fading and all i can think of is to die tonight instead of delaying it anylonger. i have no friends, my family despise me and im completely alone. I don't know what to do. i don't know what to say. Alyssa.