Not too sure about reaching out. I tried to talk with a friend tonight...she just stopped talking to me. I cant bear to try to explain to anyone else. My hubby is just as depressed as I am, he cant support me . My babies are sleeping down the hall. Everyone deserves better. I have a plan, so it looks like an accident, so he can get my insurance amounts. I am 6 inches from out. Noone cares, or helps. The world has always treated me badly. I am trying to get enough reasons to stay. I dont know what to do.