On top of the PTSD, anxiety and chronic depression, I feel heartbroken. After already losing my older son, 2 sisters and parents, I had just 1 sister overseas that talked to me and now it would appear she too has abandoned me..... why have I lost everything and everybody, I haven't done or hurt anyone, it was me who was abused and feared for my life, it was me who put myself between my ex and son to keep him safe... I've always been the nuturing one, the honest one, the caring one so why is it ME who has been ostracised???? I feel so devastated, alone and totally heartbroken. I can't ask for help... I just can't bring myself to ask for help. But I can't handle all this grief, sadness, fear and hurt.