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Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by dying_inside, Apr 4, 2011.

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  1. dying_inside

    dying_inside Well-Known Member

    i am devasted
    dont know how to cope
    i dont want to live
     
  2. the masked depressant

    the masked depressant Well-Known Member

    what's happened?

    talk about it..
     
  3. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    hope your meeting with your doc went well let us know okay hugs to yo u
     
  4. dying_inside

    dying_inside Well-Known Member

    my friend is pregnant and i know i should be happy for her but it only digs a deeper hole in my soul because it shows me how i have nothing and nothing to live for.
    and starting from here the gates of pain have opened to me and im overwhelmed by this pain and i dont know how to cope

    i am feeling so alone
     
  5. peacelovingguy

    peacelovingguy Well-Known Member

    Many people find it hard to cope with depression. After all its not like you've been trained to deal with it and likely know little about how it works.

    Thankfully its not your fault - its not something you have bought on yourself its just something that happens like any other illness or medical condition.

    What you feel right now is a reaction to a very frightening condition which allows negativity to pretty much overburden you and dictate the way you think.

    This makes you feel sad over the pregnancy as your using that happy event to judge your own lack of happiness. This seems unfair - and IT IS, mainly because there are ways to cope with depression and your not being fair to yourself if you do not try some of the methods used to cope or even eliminate the darkness.

    Depression also makes you isolate yourself - hence loneliness.

    You got to take steps to overcome the depression and loneliness. Might seem like its a world away right now but for all you know there might be someone waiting for you to bump into them next month.

    You think life is not worth it - but its worth more than you ever imagine.

    Be a friend to yourself - seek some help, talk to people. Don't keep it all to yourself!
     
  6. solutions

    solutions Well-Known Member

    Why is the pregnancy affecting you like this? What about it isn't right for you?
     
  7. dying_inside

    dying_inside Well-Known Member

    her pregancy shows me how others move on with their lives and get to be happy while i have nothing and nothing makes me happy.

    i am stuck in this almost-life with nothing

    and i hate life.

    I HATE LIFE
     
  8. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Hun things can and will change give it time okay you will have down days but you will also have days that will bring you happiness hugs to you
     
  9. dying_inside

    dying_inside Well-Known Member

    I dont know how to cope.

    im drinking, cutting, taking pills and this wont go away.

    i want to die.

    and this is only about what regards me...

    about my pregnant friend: i dont want to talk to her anymore. i dont want to be her friend anymore. it would be all so fake.

    i feel that i either find a boyfriend who could save me or my last and only way out is suicide.

    im scared and mad and hurt and crying.

    i want out, i want out.
     
  10. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    throw the booze away okay it only makes you more depressed and the pills too
    you will only feel worse later on. Call your doc and see if you can go back to hospital for awhile okay until your medication kicks in hugs to you
     
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