I hate myself so much, I feel today like I am the Devil. I need someone to hold me in their arms and love me, people just keep saying things will get better and to have hope, but that day never comes, month after month, year after year. I want to go into peace and not suffer anymore. If I stay here for 2 or 3 people then its cheating them surely? I cant even bare to be inside my own body or mind, HATE HATE HATE MYSELF. I would like to slip away today and have done.