I'm useless in all types of relationships with people and all my tasks in life, consequently at the moment I have no friends (what is a friend, really? What is an acquaintance? What is a mate?) or girlfriends, no job, no studies, no success, terrible and worsening mental and physical health, ruined and worsening emotional health, and broken relationships with my family, I'm of no assistance to others online or offline and I'm a worthless insect, who only ends up hurting people or being really hurt because insects are pests who are hit out of the way. So I'm going to punish myself. 50 slashes with the box cutter today. I have never felt so alone in my life. Good day to you all.