My half sister reckons my Grandma (Dad's Mum) loved all her grandchildren yet even with my brilliant memory of my downbeat childhood I just don't remember her. Only time I remember seeing her face was through a door when she was on a death bed and Dad dragged us all to the Hospital. Yet I made a visit to her old house as my step grandfather lives there still and I was so desperate to know about my half sister and the whereabouts of my Dad. I noticed all the pictures of grandchildren were on the wall and mine and my brother and sister's pictures were just over in the corner collecting dust. How can I believe this women loved us I barely knew the woman. Noticed my sister and half brothers got prominent spots which has always made me feel like the outcast seeing as I discovered three years ago when all this finding out stuff happened that my Dad only visits them three and not us. How can I expect girlfriends to be loyal and stick around when flesh and blood are my downfall?