Before I was really upset over this but now not so much, I tried doing something special for the school so I entered a contest where this famous journalist would come and talk about her new book. Unforuently I did this without the school's permission and they are very mad at me now and I don't know what they are going to do to me. Realistically I didn't do too bad a thing I mean on the scale of 1 to 10 it is probably a 4 tops but, they were upset (I talked to the assitant dean) and while she didn't really do much, I could tell she enjoyed watching me apologize over and over again. The thing is as remote of a chance that they will kick me out (disiplinary measures or any varance of the words were not mentioned) I kind of hope they do kick me out, it will stop me from agonizing over wheather or not I want to do this as a career or go into a more artistic field. Hopefully they have some kind of hearing (which is as unlikely as me winning the contest) and maybe show no remorse, maybe even talk down to the person in authority there, and get kicked out. But maybe I am looking at this the wrong way I don't know?