Yes.There is a part of me that is masoschistic definitely. I've come to realize that I have seeked these relationship out on some level though, and then stayed in them even after they turned abusive, so I have to ask myself why I did that? It's so strange that I did it two times in a row, even after I had left a horrible abusive relationship I got into another abusive relationship, so seriously, what is my problem?
I never want to be in one of those relationships again. It's so destructive.