I wanted to just drop dead today. I was thinking of killing myself today. I am an ASSHOLE!!! My best friend hates my guts and won't pick up his phone. I just want to die. He's like the only friend I have :sad:. I called him thinking I was going to have an awesome conversation and my cousins showed up at his house. I was pissed. So I said I needed to go and hung up. (It's kind of confusing to explain) and then I called him back an hour later to tell him I was sorry and he asked me if I was okay, (my cousins were still there and when they are over at his house he totally ignores me. well, he doesn't ignore me, but he doesn't really listen to me like he does when he's alone.) and I was going to start to cry, and I didn't want to cry while I was on the phone so I said I had to go and hung up. I'm such a bitch. God, what did I do to deserve my miserable life. I wish I had the courage to kill myself. Well, I wanna go kill myself now!!!!