Different today

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by sihuskyzoi, Jan 7, 2012.

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  1. sihuskyzoi

    sihuskyzoi Well-Known Member

    I want to die. All day, every day. Except this morning. I had a normal/happy dream for once and I WANTED to pet the dog. And I WANTED to watch the Mizzou game on tv. And I had just a twinge of excitement about it. I hate that I have that voice in the back of my head that says "don't trust this. Nothing has changed. You are worthless. Your life will never amount to anything but loneliness and continued rejection and pain". I just want to enjoy the moment. Just for a minute.
     
  2. cult logic

    cult logic Staff Alumni

    If you can get your depression properly treated, you can kill that voice entirely.
     
  3. sihuskyzoi

    sihuskyzoi Well-Known Member

    Need some insurance to head that way, but I'm all for it.
     
  4. cult logic

    cult logic Staff Alumni

    What is there to lose?

    Worst case you're back where you started in a position to try again.
     
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