So I've been in hospital recently and came out after 4 weeks. I've been trying to get better but it's difficult to let go of the whole idea of suicide. If I get better then I'm letting go of the chance to commit suicide, which still feels like the right thing to do.
I just feel like I'm making up crisis after crisis so that I can get put back into hospital.
Or maybe I'm really relapsing.
I just feel like I'm making up crisis after crisis so that I can get put back into hospital.
Or maybe I'm really relapsing.