I want to overdose so bad. I already know what to do. However, if i overdose on it, I won't have it anymore and I need it and the doctor will never prescribe it for me anymore. I may lose my apartment and independence andmove back to a personal care home. I will not die from this, but be unconscious for awhile. At least it satisfies my thoughts and urges to overdose. I need help but im hesitant to tell anyone. I don't know what to do anymore.