Hiya, aki. I'm sorry to hear they're putting you through the wringer on your applications. Bureaucratic red tape seems to be a worldwide thing.
I agree with those who have said to apply again. Where I live, some docs/social workers even warn their clients/patients they'll be rejected on the first application. (I've heard that even if you'd been in a train wreck, lost both arms and legs and were suicidal 24/7, your first application is automatically rejected, regardless.) Maybe you're up against similar red tape where you are. I hope you do apply again! For now, keep your chin up despite the snags.
As for work...I don't know your exact circumstances...Have you worked at things you have enjoyed DOING? Is the "environment" right for you? Do you and the people you worked with have similar outlooks on life? Those things can make a difference. For example, I could do a few kinds of work if I liked and valued the product/service an organization provided; but, if I felt the job and organization existed just to be a money-grab, I'd be unhappy there. If it were a heavy sales environment, people around me would quite possibly be way more outgoing than I am, and I'd get down on myself. And it's not that those jobs or organizations are "bad", it's just not what
I do best. Ideally, a person and job need to "click" with each other as much as possible. So what do YOU enjoy and do best? What sorts of jobs use those skills and your personal traits in the best way for
you? If you haven't done any career exploration lately, maybe your local employment office offers some personality trait and aptitude/interest tests that could give you some help in figuring out your next steps. (Or the local library or even some of the big job posting websites in your area might have things for career exploration.)
In the short term, perhaps temporary jobs or part-time work could help you try different things so you can try out a few different jobs and workplaces. (BTW, some people love to make a career out of temp work because they don't get tied down to doing just one thing for a hundred years :biggrin
Things will eventually turn in your favor, so just hang in there.
A.