About 3 weeks ago I got paperwork, on the same day, for re-evaluations from social security and my private disability insurance company. I filled out all the papers and by the end of the week my psychiatrist completed her part and all papers were sent in. Now it's the waiting game. I started being anxious when I got the paperwork and it continued but about 1 1/2 weeks ago I started getting depressed. Teary, lack of concentration, low energy, feeling heavy, can't think straight - couldn't even remember how to turn off an app on my iPod...and there is only one button!, appetite gone, sleep bad with only 4 to 5 hours before I wake up. Lately I have had fleeting passive suicidal thoughts, very distressing. I saw my psychologist on Wednesday and we looked up when I had the last evaluation from my insurance company and it was 3 weeks before my last hospitalization. I don't want to reach that point again but my condition keeps getting worse.