Disabled Veteran rejected by his country and fellow veterans

Discussion in 'Mental Health Disorders' started by AmericanNight, Jul 22, 2009.

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  1. AmericanNight

    AmericanNight Member

    I have the following disorders, Anxiety,GAD,Manic Depression,insomnia,Social Anxiety disorder,Agoraphobic and of course have tried to take the ultimate course of action.

    I have been sick both mentally and physically since 1995, and it continues to worsen, my ability to make decisions has gone down hill this year, I have been declared unemployable and struggle daily to make ends meet. My frustrations build day after day as problems arise that I have no solutions for. I have been rejected by the Military community after giving 20+ years of service to my country. I am lost and desperate, everyday when I get out of bed, I throw up, my stomach feels like I have been punched a thousand consecutive times. I can't give my kids what they need like a college education or a good neighborhood, I am being eaten alive with all that is happening in my life and its getting to the point that I am giving up completely, I have a Doctor, she is very good but their is something very wrong with my mind, she has told me after test that my Brain shows areas of non functionality. She has suggested I talk and talk and talk and I am doing that, I started my own blog about my desperation's of what I feel and why. A few of my fellow veterans seen it and sent me e-mails saying what a loser I am and called me a dirt bag not worthy to be called a veteran. So I found this site which may very well be my last hope.

  2. JohnADreams

    JohnADreams Well-Known Member

    It's disgusting the way other veterans have treated you. Compassion seems to be low on the list of priorities in the world today.

    As is common with most threads I read on this site, I don't know what to say that will help you in your situation. Only thing I can think of is to not allow the disorders you are dealing with, define who you are as a person.
  3. plates

    plates Well-Known Member

    I don't know why they said that to you but it's a good possibility they are have serious problems with needing to 'be strong' , 'be a man' etc.

    Talking and talking is a good idea and it can save you. Your idea of a blog sounds great.

    Do you know of any low-cost therapists that specialise for veterans? They might help you detoxify yourself of the memories and anxiety you have.
  4. ashes_away

    ashes_away Well-Known Member

    american night
    This is shocking.There are so many disabled vets like you,and it is unfortunate that you have not been able to find others like yourself to build a support network.Have you sought out forums for vets with PTSD ,and other etc? It makes me so angry.Please try to ignore anyone who says cruel things to you.They are misguided,and may even be brainwashed if they in the military themselves and are afraid to show compassion for a fellow vet.Were you in active duty during war time?There are supposed to be many support networks for vets.You can talk to us,anytime.:arms:
  5. AmericanNight

    AmericanNight Member

    Yes, I was in at a time of War, I was in Haiti, Gulf War, Somalia, Bosnia and saw assassinations of Air force personnel at Clark AB in the Philippines. I do have a Psychiatrist, I see her every 2 weeks.

    It is very frustrating to see and hear other Veterans regarding me as some sort of pretender or weak. I have basically become a shut in, I don't leave my home unless I really have to (Doctor mostly). Since being declared unemployable by 3 different Doctors including the Veterans Administration and Social Security my life has and continues to spiral into a living hell, I have been called names for being on Welfare, even though the SS payments are my payments I had paid in. Many people who use to come visit me have now written me off as someone to be avoided at all times. People do not understand that mental illness is very real and it has physical problems associated with it, especially pain, which me doctors have acknowledge is part of my mental illness. I joined a Military site and then I was banned because I stated in the Church and Medical Forum about my problems and they said. "Your participation on this website has been revoked." no other reason. The only part of the day that I feel better is at night after 9:00 pm, then when I awake the next morning. I get sick all over again. This has been going on for years, since 1995 when I was still in the Navy. I been trying to do something to help with our finances like open a store online but when I apply for help even through the government I get denied, because I am on disability, go figure. So you can see my level of frustration and hopelessness I am starting to feel and it gets stronger everyday, no on seems to care or will help out. I am at the end of my rope.
  6. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    Wow. I'm so sorry you've been treated so badly. In a way, it shocks me, but I guess in other ways it doesn't, because the world can be a really cruel place.

    I'd love to try and help you in any way I can, even if it's by doing research to try and find organizations that might help you, or just listening and being a friend. If you ever need anything, you can PM me anytime.
  7. Bambi

    Bambi Well-Known Member

    I don't know what to say or offer to you other than to say I am glad you are here. You have been treated so poorly and you don't deserve that at all.
    Please know you can PM at anytime and I will look for your posts as well.
    I hope we can help you as you are clearly fighting for yourself which is so admirable.

    Take care please know we care.

    Love and hugs B
  8. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    It is terrible the army just ignores the plight of its veterans it happens here in Canada as well. Once the service is done it seems the army doesn't give a dam. You deserve better and if i were you i would get my story out there in blogs on the news anyway because you are not the only one suffering and it isn't right. I am glad you are here because you deserve respect and honor not anything less remember that your service to your country did matter and if your fellow veterans can't remember that maybe someone needs to remind them.. Please take care and come here anytime to get support and thank you for your service take care
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