I'm so disappointed in myself. I've been really, really emotional lately. Tonight I've been sobbing uncontrollably for the past 2 hours. In a desperate attempt to numb myself and regain control, I cut again. But worse. After I did it I was just in shock. I still am. I can't believe I lost control and cut so badly.. I've been so good with therapy and everything. Its freaking me out just looking at it, it looks so awful, ugh I'm so upset with myself.