I have just survived living with my addict boyfriend for two and a half years. He is 5 months into recovery and I have been going to Al-anon meetings for the past 10 months. I thought I was doing well...working hard and doing my best to get better. I still love my boyfriend. He's moved out, but we are still together. He does not recognize my efforts - he thinks I am just being optimistic about my recovery. I have been struggling in my recovery (from the effects of living with an addict)...I feel like I take one step forward and two steps back. I have been seeing a therapist, taking anti-depressants, going to the gym, yoga, keeping busy, but I still constantly feel fear and anxiety. I am exhausted. I just want the pain to end.