I dunno why I keep coming back here. I sit in chat and get so agitated and disgusted with people. I have very little patience for people now and yes I know that is my fault. everything is fucking my fault. I room hop or I come in and out a lot, its not because im having fucking pc issues or whatever.. its because im torn as whether I want to sit here and listen and hurt myself or if I want to be alone and physically hurt myself. I honestly don't know which is worse. I don't talk, I don't force my shit on anyone else.. why bother. everyone has there own shit they don't need more. I kno I need to be in chat even if its just sitting in a room all alone and yet am I even wanted in there or am I just a burden to all of them... im disgusted with everything in life but mostly with myself.