I just dont know what to do anymore. I'm 20 and my 21st birthday is on monday. I got into trouble with the law exactly 3 weeks ago. I live with my parents and they are making me crazy. One minute they love me and call me honey and baby and the next minute the look at me as if I'm a disease and I just dont know what to do anymore. I keep on thinking that if they can do this then they wont mind it if im no longer here which is what i've been contemplating the last 3 weeks. I feel as though this is never going to stop. they are never going to love me the way that they did and they are never going to move past it and make me feel like their daughter. I really just cant deal with it anymore. I've done nothing but tiptoe around the last 3 weeks barely speaking and even leaving the house other than to go to school. I feel like I'm just past the point of no return. Every night I sleep for 1 hour then am woken up by nightmares or just restlessness. Im sleep deprived im depressed and i just wish that they could notice what im going through. I just feel like theres no other way to feel better than to just dissapear.