had just finished mowing the front yard and was in the middle of raising the mower couple of notches so could mow the really heavy grass in back.. that was the last thing I remember.. couple of hours later I went thru the usual hard times trying to come back to reality.. the inbetween stage is where I cannot do the simpliest tasks done on automatic thousands of times... all totally beyond me then and a clue what happened during the event.. do not know day... anything about the day , just totally lost..
been doing this for more than 60 yrs and you would think I would be used to this by now!!! that has not happened.. I still feel like a new born infant all the way powerless, thoughtloess and just totally out to lunch.... at least now instead of spending most of each day dissociating, now is a rare occurrence...
just wish to bloody hell I did not do it at all/....
been doing this for more than 60 yrs and you would think I would be used to this by now!!! that has not happened.. I still feel like a new born infant all the way powerless, thoughtloess and just totally out to lunch.... at least now instead of spending most of each day dissociating, now is a rare occurrence...
just wish to bloody hell I did not do it at all/....