I think I am going to distance myself. I have nothing. I disappear and everyone goes on, don't even notice I am gone. I use to think I had friends, but they now have nothing to do with me. I give my all. It's never enough. If I leave and leave this place disappear, let myself go father down... I won't have anything to hold onto anymore, I have very little right now anyway. As for a couple of you I am sorry if I ever hurt your feelings.. if anythin I've tried to spare people being triggered by me being so upset, but I get chewed out. Worthless I am. But hopefuly if my health problems don't get worse (which they certainly could) then maybe I can make everything drift away, and I can ceise to exist..