My girlfriend of 10 years has said she’s had enough of me... we’re not kids I’m 61 and she is 58.... I have a problem with drinking... her mum is dying at the moment in hospital and the other Monday I went up the hospital at 10pm drunk... this was the final straw... she won’t see me oar speak to me and I have to move out of our home by midday tomorrow... I have never felt like this in my life and all my own doing...I don’t want to carry on without her...the feeling is absolute despair and nothing I can do... I have nowhere to go... both my parents are dead I miss them and just don’t know or who to turn too. Sounds like self pity?? Just desperation... I really don’t want to feel like this and want this to end.