Out of curiosity. I watched many vids of real deaths. I seen people who commited suicide, with guns, hanging, jumping. It is so gross and looks so painful, especially the hangings. Seeing people with their necks strecthed like a giraffe is pretty fucked up. also being shot... ouch. hah. Beheadings, jesus those are the worse. Watching people get shot and slowly die, even in the head ive seen. Car wrekc with people torn apart and smashed under tireds, blood and guts every where. This is gruesome. I am scared of any form of suicide now. So yeah im too chicken to try any thing except maybe gun. I gotta stop being a puss and over come my fears though if I want to become stronger.