dnt know if i can keep fighting

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by meagainstme, Apr 21, 2011.

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  1. meagainstme

    meagainstme Well-Known Member

    spending yet ANOTHER night in tears but tonight they're falling harder and faster than usual.
    i cant cope anymore. everything is drowning me and i cant find a way to get out.
    why does everyone hate me? what have i done????
    not even my own boyfriend wants to be near me. ''ill be out for an hour'' 4 hours later and ur off into town with goodness know how many drinks down ur neck and girls wrapped around you.

    surely i deserve more? why cant anyone want to just look after me and give me a hug and let me know im safe. why am i constantly fighting not to cut. not to purge. not to eat. not to f*cking think.

    i seriously cant live like this. who would want to feel this way every day???

    i dont feel special. i dont feel loved. who would love a fat u*ly cow like me.

    i cant even breathe right now im crying too much. im so fed up of tears that i cant stop.

    im just a f*cking joke. a joke that needs to end.

    please please someone be here for me. anyone. im reaching out just for someone to understand.

    oh gosh i cant COPE!""""!!!!!!!!!!!
     
  2. glenndav

    glenndav Member

    i deff understand. and i have felt the same way many many times.

    and sometimes there is nothing u can do.

    but sometimes there is. stand your ground. f*ck ur boyfriend. he sounds like a douche. u dont deserve him.

    and most importantly never ever forget that you are beautiful. and there is noone in this world that can tell u diff.
     
  3. meagainstme

    meagainstme Well-Known Member

    but im struggling to see anything beautiful about myself. i run around doing everything trying to please everyone and i cant get it right. nothing i do is good enough. i need to just get away. i cant cope. i really really cant.
     
  4. glenndav

    glenndav Member

    well...it takes time but im serious. i have never seen u and i dont have to. cause i know without a shadow of a doubt that u are. and there is someone out there who will recognize and appreciate that. and "getting away" is ok. go. drive somewhere. go sit on a park bench. find somewhere or somehow to relax
     
  5. icequeen

    icequeen Well-Known Member

    oh god..another example of how society is obsessed on if you dont look a partic way you are worthless. you are not! your bf is an ass and he is doing what he is doing because you let him as you are insecure in yourself. you deserve so much better. no one should make someone feel the way you do. but in his defence, maybe he cant cope with your emotions and doesnt know how to tell you...maybe try and get him to talk...but you should not feel pressured to look a certain way. deal with one thing at a time...if he wants a stick insect...let him go find one...guarantee he wont be happy with someone watching every mouthful. its all about balance. dont beat yourself up, you dont deserve to..be happy for who you are, not how others want you to be. :cheekkiss
     
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