spending yet ANOTHER night in tears but tonight they're falling harder and faster than usual.
i cant cope anymore. everything is drowning me and i cant find a way to get out.
why does everyone hate me? what have i done????
not even my own boyfriend wants to be near me. ''ill be out for an hour'' 4 hours later and ur off into town with goodness know how many drinks down ur neck and girls wrapped around you.
surely i deserve more? why cant anyone want to just look after me and give me a hug and let me know im safe. why am i constantly fighting not to cut. not to purge. not to eat. not to f*cking think.
i seriously cant live like this. who would want to feel this way every day???
i dont feel special. i dont feel loved. who would love a fat u*ly cow like me.
i cant even breathe right now im crying too much. im so fed up of tears that i cant stop.
im just a f*cking joke. a joke that needs to end.
please please someone be here for me. anyone. im reaching out just for someone to understand.
oh gosh i cant COPE!""""!!!!!!!!!!!
i cant cope anymore. everything is drowning me and i cant find a way to get out.
why does everyone hate me? what have i done????
not even my own boyfriend wants to be near me. ''ill be out for an hour'' 4 hours later and ur off into town with goodness know how many drinks down ur neck and girls wrapped around you.
surely i deserve more? why cant anyone want to just look after me and give me a hug and let me know im safe. why am i constantly fighting not to cut. not to purge. not to eat. not to f*cking think.
i seriously cant live like this. who would want to feel this way every day???
i dont feel special. i dont feel loved. who would love a fat u*ly cow like me.
i cant even breathe right now im crying too much. im so fed up of tears that i cant stop.
im just a f*cking joke. a joke that needs to end.
please please someone be here for me. anyone. im reaching out just for someone to understand.
oh gosh i cant COPE!""""!!!!!!!!!!!