So while avoiding my roommate I have nothing to do so I let my mind wander. It wanders back to my thoughts and feelings about females, and how I felt back when I first lost my now ex. I think back to those days when it first happened. I was crushed nothing could make me happy. I missed every aspect of what we had. You know conversation, random adventures, addicting her to anime and video games, intimacy. You know every small detail of the relationship. As time went on, I would say no more than 6 months, I started to only miss the physical. Namely sex, but I did miss the cuddling and hugging as long as it lead up to sex. Then another 6 or so months passed. Now I see no point in giving females who the time of day if I am not having sex with them. I really do not see any point to even seeing them, in a casual social setting, if sex is not involved. So this leads me to believe that not only did my heart break, but it has been decomposing. I cannot say for sure if I am just depressed or not. Seeing as how I have barely even spoken to females since the relationship ended. However, it does feel like my heart has decomposed and is never going to be fixed. Thoughts, opinions.... other?