I keep walking down the street and staring at people doing normal things (I'm pretty sure I'm freaking them out by now!), it'll just be people having a regular life, I don't look at celebrities and people with massive houses and feel envious, I look at couples holding hands [because that has never been me], married people with children, people doing their weekly shop at the supermarket, people buying clothes in Top Shop [that I could never fit into], people having a drink with their friends [without getting so off their faces they can't remember who they made it home], people chatting to their best friends on the phone or people who tell them they love them [because nobody has ever told me that], people studying at Uni, or just going to work in the mornings in their suits, people talking about going on holiday or making future plans that they are actually going to go through with... I'm just so jealous because I am 25 and I have never done any of these things and I feel like the way I'm going I never will. I just crave a normal life, to be a normal size, with a boyfriend and a university degree and a good job, money in the bank, somewhere I pay rent and friends that actually care about me. I wish I had all of that and I don't know how to get it. Can anybody relate?