Feels kind of liberating to be honest. Every other time I have considered it I *****ed out but these anti-depressant meds I'm taking are just increasing my urge to the point where for the first time I think I'm gonna go through with it. Common sense would dictate to stop taking my meds since all they do is make me more depressed but in a weird way I have learned to embrace my depression. It feels good now. Gonna start writing my note tomorrow and hopefully within the next week I can execute my plan. After hours of research I have chosen the most efficient and less painful way to exit (which I will not share in respect of forum rules). I do not know why I'm writing this down, I'm not as in touch with my emotions as I used to be. I've been acting very irrationally these past few days when I've been on my meds. I guess I'm just looking for a way to pass the time as I get ready for my plan. Hell, however unlikely maybe someone will even convince me otherwise. But anyway, I wish the rest of you luck. From what I read on this forum most of you don't really want to die, you just want different things in life. I hope you all get what you're looking for.