... Or just disordered eating? This has been worrying me lately. I am not happy with the way I look, but I don't think I'm fat or ugly. Part of me wants to be ugly. I don't like the attention I get from men, which is mainly directed at my (large!) breasts. In a way I really like my "hourglass" figure, but I hate my curves too. I often skip meals. Sometimes I go for days at a time without eating a thing, just to prove I can. When I feel hungry I make myself wait until I feel really hungry before I eat. I binge eat though, too. I've never been overweight or particularly underweight. I used to eat three huge meals a day, and my friends were all jealous of my metabolism. Now I just don't want to eat at all. Just recently I've become pretty obsessed with weighing myself. I do it two or three or even more times a day, but I don't know why. I don't have a "target weight" or anything, at least not consciously. But I do feel good when I see that I've lost a few pounds. Is making myself feel really really hungry and denying myself food a form of self-harm? What's wrong with me?