Ive never had a good relationship with my mum and when I first told her about my depression and erges to commit suicide she just flipped it around and said I was attention seeking and told everyone I was doing it to hurt her which is far from true... She always makes comments to me to bring me down whether it's my weight which I have issues with, that I'm not wanted or loved etc and tonight that my father was abusive in an attempt to make me cuts ties with him... Anyway I have wanted to move out for a while and I've finally found somewhere that I can kinda afford... I earn £417 a month and my rent would be £320 and all I need to pay for is food.. Thing is I'm worried it might not be the best idea since I've been pretty low lately an had two occasions where I've wanted to commit suicide but hvent been able to due to the fact that it's been made that there is always someone with me to the extent at night the room I share is locked and I have to wake the other person to get out and use the toilet... I know my mood with lift being away from this negative environment but I'm scared I may do something stupid? :/
Im sorry to hear about how your mom has reacted.
I kinda wanted to post mainly about moving out. I don't know if you mean earning from a job or earning from benifits, but 417 isn't going to be enough. Food is going to be considerably more than 100 pounds. Plus if you're working you need transportation, which is either bus fare or petrol money. If you're walking, you're going to be more physical, which will require you to eat more, meaning more money will have to be spent. I donno if council tax will be included either, or internet access either. But assuming that is all included.
You're going to still be forking your money out onto food. You'll be without any money, so you can't do anything outside unless it's free. That's not good for you in my opinon. You can still have a life, but it's.. straining to a degree. Especially if you're feeling down and depressed.
Er... I'd honestly wait until you have a bit more cash income. Or can get benifit support. I would suggest though not getting benifit support, and being able to support yourself. It's better for your own self esteem in my opinon. Do it right, that's what I'll say. Start looking for work that you enjoy, and if you can't find any, honestly, start volunterring in that field. If you are sitting on any money, start taking training courses, or go back to school. I'm not sure how old you are but take advantage of a free room and board. Gain as many skills, and save up money. The reason Im saying this is, the last thing you want is to be on barley any money, working a really mind numbing dead end job, especially when you're depressed. Try and leave home with a boom in a direction that you want your life to go. It's liberating to be on your own, but that also comes with other things.
:S how bad is it at home?