Almost a month ago My girlfriend of almost 2 years broke up with me. It's been very hard to deal with. We were so close, I was always there for her when she needed me. Maybe I was the one who needed her this whole time, I don't think she saw it that way. I have no friends right now, not at school. I have an online friend who I used to be good friends with before I moved. She's different from me (my ex), she doesn't struggle so hard socially. It was long distance. But that's just about the best I can do. We'd talked so much. every bit of every day, sometimes over webcam, eventually we were comfortable enough to talk over mic, but we at least talked through MSN all the time. She was so sweet to me, It's all i've wanted for a long time. Before I met her I was always very depressed and did have thoughts of suicide, my grades were failing and I was miserable as a person, although I feel bad saying that because there are others who are worse off. I do have a family, my mom and brother. My mom's always at work now and I pretty much live on the computer, I just can't help it that i'm the way i am. Even having my friend online (we try to talk often but sometimes we don't) and my family, it's just not enough. I feel like i'm missing out on so much, I have problems with my social life. I guess it's Social Anxiety or something, idunno. Before she broke it off she distanced herself from me for a couple weeks, would hardly get online to talk to me. She said she couldn't handle it anymore and she needed someone who could be there for her. I guess that she had begun liking someone else during those weeks, apparently they're together now. And here I am all alone. I thought I would be okay, I was numb at first, but then I became very hurt. After that it let off just a bit, but i was very lonely again, just like before I had her. Now I'm probably at my worst, I feel so empty without her. I feel like she hates me although she says she doesn't, she's the only thing i can think about. I sit and just hope she'll talk to me (she doesn't anymore unless i message her, even then it's not the same..). I've tried to talk to her about things but she says that I just upset her and that she doesn't want to deal with it. I want to be the one to make her happy, we had planned on seeing each other this summer for the first time. I was so happy and now I'm crushed. She wont comfort me, and she was the only one that was and could. She saved me before, made me into a different person, but now it's all falling apart again. Sorry, really long rant. I just don't know what to do. I don't want to accept this but I feel like i need to. She says she wants to be friends still, but just seeing her online. every second she isn't talking to me is just another second i feel neglected and alone. Does anyone have any advice ?