I have been told the "fake it till you make it" line my entire life, what happens if you never make it? I have resisted killing myself because I didn't want my mom to feel guilt and then three years ago my aunt lost her 18 year old daughter in a car accident and I moved near them to help, now I am afraid of causing my aunt and uncle more pain. My question is: Am I allowed to be selfish? I am so unhappy and have been since I was 9, I really, really don't want to be here anymore. Do I have the right to end it? my entire life has been me worrying about everone else and I hate it. I've been hoping to get sick or get into a car accident just to get it done. I don't know what to do anymore.