i need some help... ive been with my wife for nearly 4 years and we have been married for 6 months, she know everything about me. all about the depression, paranoid thoughts, hearing voices everything, but one thing that i cant bear to tell her is that she is the only reason that i am still on this earth. since i have been with her i have not tried suicide - thought about it a few times when things just got really bad, but it was never a recurrent thought. just lately been thinking about it alot. i keep thinking that she would be better off without me and all the problems that come along with me. i dont want to tell her that she is the only thing keeping me here because i dont want to put pressure on her. she will probably think that she has to not upset me or else i might not be here afterwards. anyway... i want to tell her about this...about this forum...and about how i really feel, but i dont know if i should. i dont want her to worry about me or to start pussy footing around me incase of upsetting me. what do i do???