My boyfriend is getting better... but he's going through some stuff... health wise, that also affects his emotions... He knows I have issues with cutting. He has seen my scars, and he knows how ashamed I am of them... and how hard I do try to stop. When we first 'got together' I strongly warned him about getting feelings for me because of this. I'm not stupid. It's hard to care for someone who uses pain and knives to solve problems. Most of the times I have messed up I tried to hide it from him... but he can see straight through me. Some of the times he couldn't handle it. He gets panic attacks... And some times he's been amazing, helping me through it... trying several therapeutic methods. I've got this issue that when I break a glass or something the shards are... tempting... and he's planning on training with me so that it won't be so... so that in the future my clumsy self can break a glass and just clear it away like a normal person. It wasn't what happened Friday night... I had to do something before I killed myself after this horrible weekend. I had to... I hate that I did it. I really, really want to stop. I want to be stronger. But... it's probably a stupid question, but should I hide it from him? He's finally getting better, I don't want to be the one that ruins that.