So today I wen to my doctor/therapist and told him a little bit more about my suicidal thoughts, he wants me to go the hospital. This afternoon I pleaded with him not to send me there, but now I wonder if I should be? I just don't think hospitals are very useful, and until I actually attempt, I feel silly going. There just thoughts, granted they are not normal thoughts, but still there just thoughts. Hardly seems that I am in imminent danger... I am so confused, I feel tortured by this pain and constant ache to die, but then again, what can anyone do to help that go away? Sitting in a hospital and rotting away for a few days hardly seems like the answer....I just don't know what to do. I see my doctor on Friday, if I make it until then...I just don't know.