do u truly want to stop hurting yourself?

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by jane doe, Mar 10, 2009.

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do u truly want to stop hurting yourself??

  1. yes i want it, but seems i cant

    20.6%
  2. No

    32.4%
  3. yes, and im succeeding

    14.7%
  4. No. but sometimes i do.

    32.4%
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  1. jane doe

    jane doe Well-Known Member

    im guessing there is people who truly wants and people who is happy with it someway.. what do u think?
     
  2. crookxshanks

    crookxshanks Well-Known Member

    i feel like ive been doing it too long.. over 14years.. to stop. feels like its part of me

    is a very interesting question though
     
  3. jane doe

    jane doe Well-Known Member

    wow 14 years. How old are u if i may ask? just wondering im 20 started almost 7 years ago
     
  4. Beautiful Disaster

    Beautiful Disaster Forum Buddy SF Supporter

    I do, only because Im running out lame excuses for my scars
    but seriously, it's like this monster takes over my mind and I just need to cut.
    It's really insane because I cut stars and figures on my arms and legs and I want them to look nice. When i think about it now its completely tragic but whenever I am doing it, it seems to make perfect sense..

    I got issues i think ;)
     
  5. jane doe

    jane doe Well-Known Member

    scars are a good reason to stop hurting yourself, altough u should look for a good one to keep thinking u dont want to do it anymore for good :D
     
  6. worlds edge

    worlds edge Well-Known Member

    I suppose I'm a bit different in that I do not cut or burn, but hit myself with a blunt object (a rubber mallet.) Perhaps that accounts for why I can seemingly pick it up and put it down as I feel like it? If there's anyone at this site who does what I do I've not seen it mentioned. In any event, I have no sense of being addicted to the sensation.

    Not really sure how much more I can say without violating a rule, but I could go on about this sort of silliness at great length. :rolleyes:
     
  7. jane doe

    jane doe Well-Known Member

    i do have seen people who has done that, but i think they eventually stopped or switched to the other regular self harm methods(wich i do not recomend)
    im glad if u dont feel addicted to that sensation, means u still can easily find some other coping way for your anger or sadness :)

    be strong and do not ever let it take control over you :)
     
  8. worlds edge

    worlds edge Well-Known Member

    Dunno, I've been doing the blunt object thing off and on for about three years now, and have never had an interest in doing anything else.
     
  9. jane doe

    jane doe Well-Known Member

    have you ever think about stoping doing it?
     
  10. crookxshanks

    crookxshanks Well-Known Member

    am almost 29. did do things to cut myself when i was about 7/8years old but i dont know if they count but im sure they didnt help and so you almost could say its been most of my life i guess
     
  11. worlds edge

    worlds edge Well-Known Member

    Certainly. I do it to motivate myself and to discipline myself when I fail. I've stopped for months, though most recently I stopped for about ten days after I left some marks that I was afraid might lead to discovery.

    And my choice of method is not that I have any particular aversion to cutting or burning, it is rather that I think I've hit (pun intended) on a method that causes a great deal of pain with minimal risk of either permanent damage or chance of discovery. Though if there was a risk of permanent damage with no chance of discovery, I'd probably still do what I'm doing. And if there was a high risk of discovery I'd probably quit for good.
     
  12. Scum

    Scum Well-Known Member

    I'm not btoehred by it, and know that its a symptom, and so when the causes are healed/sorted then it wont be an issue. Not sure what category I come into though, so I didn't vote.
     
  13. jane doe

    jane doe Well-Known Member

    well i guess it could fit into a "no" lol. since u dont want to stop untill u feel better
     
  14. Scum

    Scum Well-Known Member

    No, it's not that simple. It's not me doing the self harming, I don't have conscious power when it happens, I depersonalise at best, and dissociate at worst, so I'd love for those things to stop because then I wouldn't actually SI in the first place. So it's not that simple. For me, it's not a choice.
     
  15. jane doe

    jane doe Well-Known Member

    wow and have u seen a doc about it? seems so dangerous! :S
     
  16. Scum

    Scum Well-Known Member

    lol, yeh, of course. They are trying to help me find a way to beat the dissociation. It's apparently a pretty specialist field, lol. Goodo.
     
  17. jane doe

    jane doe Well-Known Member

    wow. i wonder, does it happens randomly or when u are under some kind of pressure? do u have any memories of what u do when u are not actually yourself?
    im sorry for all these questions but its just a very interesting topic. Besides we`re both around here since 2006 and never talked to eachother ..i think :D
     
  18. Scum

    Scum Well-Known Member

    Erm, it happens when my mind is under stress, but also it gets its own ideas of what it wants to do and when, and there isn't necessarily a reason for it. Sometimes its like watching it happen on a TV screen (which is the depersonalisation) and sometimes I have no recollection of it (which is the dissociation and the more dangerous part, that normally doesn't involve cutting, it tends to involve more extreme ways of self harm normally).

    And don't worry about asking questions :)
     
  19. jane doe

    jane doe Well-Known Member

    i wish we in this forum could do more to help u out to not get stressed up :S

    sigh i gotta go to have some breakfast, couldnt sleep last night and have to be awake for another 15 hours T.T

    take care :D
     
  20. Scum

    Scum Well-Known Member

    :( Sorry you got no sleep. I hope you manage to maybe have a restful day and sleep well tonight. x
     
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