I seems nothing I try is good enough for anyone anymore. "Friends", and I use that term in a rather diluted sense, leave me left right and centre after they've leeched their little piece off of me. It's not as if I'm a bad person. I try my hardest to help them when something is wrong but they can't do something as simple as just make the effort to talk back. Me, being the sucker I am, fall for it every single time and I just get dragged deeper and deeper as I start caring too. I've just found out that one friend might have cancer and saw her coughing up blood. She is the only person who is bothering to say a single word to me at the moment and straight away life shoots me in the heart when it sees that someone is trying to do something good for me. I trusted 3 people in my life. That's it. 3. One, the friend I've just mentioned, another is a girl who has helped me since I first started getting depressed in college, the other was supposed to be my soulmate. But as usual I just keep being showed why I should keep my heart on a leash. No matter what I try and do to get people to talk to me they just abandon me for somebody else. And again its not like I don't try. I really do. I'm there but I just get ignored and neglected every bloody time. And it's not exactly as if they're busy or don't know I'm there. Still got time to talk to everyone everywhere else though eh? Yeah. I'll still be here next time you need me. Coz that's just the sucker I am.