Everytime i go to sleep i meet fantastic characters filled to the brim with personality. People i would truly want to have in my life or would like to become. Or objects that meant so much to me in the dream but don't really exist. I've had so many of these dreams i'm almost sick of it. The latest one involved my hunting down someone who had stolen a very precious doll of mine named Nivira. In the dream it was my whole world so waking up to realised it doesn't exist, or the people i met don't exist is really hard, it's really painful. I feel like i'd be happier to live in my dreams with them forever. And i realised even if i were to recreate Nivira it would always be a copy of the original, no original exists but it wouldn't be the one from the dream so it wouldn't be the same. It's gotten to the point that i endlessly search for medication that will just kill me 100% effortlessly in my sleep so i can stay with them forever. Even i think it sounds weird but i was honestly wondering if i'm the only one who has these kind of dreams?