Maybe I shouldn't ask as I am not sure how honest you will be I just wonder if you ever think it's a good thing. I can't find any reason to be here. I have no family...not a single person. My "friends" well I guess aren't true friends. They aren't here when it matters. One finds it really easy to pick at me and just say it's tough love when it's quite harsh and hurtful. And it's always about things I lack confidence in Another friend never visits. I visit her or never see her. She never calls and hardly responds if I email. Others have lost touch and I"m obviously no loss. I am alone and tired. My pets have died and I am not sure I can get another. I've tried and am trying going back to school but it's overwhelming for me. I am in trauma therapy and have been for years. My therapist is great but I may lose her too due to lack of funding. Guess it doesn't matter as she is a therapist and not a real part of my life. so it sounds like I have good reason to give up. trying to convince myself otherwise this evening but just so sad. why live at this point? I have nothing. I have spent this weekend ( as most) alone without so much as an email. I am nobody.