I have been suicidal and depressed for a long time, and 99.999% of the time I feel this way. Today I was not really depressed I was pretty much nothing if that makes sense. I was not happy, upset, or worried I was just here, and I do not know how to explain it better, but I just felt completely empty and loss. At least when I am depressed or worried there is at least something there. Do you understand what I am trying to say?