Hello,
I'd like to hear your thoughts on this:
Do you ever want to feel worse?
I sometimes do, and it confuses me. I feel like because I'm not completely devastated by the short comings of my life, I put up with a lot of pain and discomfort. I keep going in and out of depressive times. Each time it gets easier, I keep thinking that this is just another loop and it drains me. If it one day got bad enough, maybe I would be too exhausted to moralize myself away from suicide.
Right now I'm going down again, and I'm in some fucked up way excited about it. It seems so wrong to hope and be excited about that, but that is what I feel.
I'd like to hear your thoughts on this:
Do you ever want to feel worse?
I sometimes do, and it confuses me. I feel like because I'm not completely devastated by the short comings of my life, I put up with a lot of pain and discomfort. I keep going in and out of depressive times. Each time it gets easier, I keep thinking that this is just another loop and it drains me. If it one day got bad enough, maybe I would be too exhausted to moralize myself away from suicide.
Right now I'm going down again, and I'm in some fucked up way excited about it. It seems so wrong to hope and be excited about that, but that is what I feel.