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#4
Yes, I hear you: it does feel like a major limitation @Butterfly – I've personally had to make so many adjustments so that I could function close to a more normal level again. Normal: meaning that I'm approaching – but not quite reaching - the way of living I had before I got ill. It's one of those stages of grieving, no doubt.

At age 31 it's now year 15 of having dealt with the (after) effects of the psychosis – and year 12 of living with the depersonalization disorder. Though I have days where I do feel better, experience less fatigue, feelings of anxiety etc. But to have that consistently is so difficult.

On some days I do experience frustration with regards to mental health issues – Anxiety can be a killer. Isolation, avoidance of anxiety inducing (social) situations, OCD, you name it.

I get sensory overload super fast now – I have about a limit of 3 hours of where I can be outside the house for example. When I get back home I have to recover for the rest of the day and sometimes the day after that as well. Curtains closed for a darker room, less input of information and hopefully have no bad headaches.

With mental health issues I think I have to put in almost double the effort to have some sense of normalcy. I prefer not to aim for 'actual' happiness – as that hasn't happened in forever with the disorder that was developed. I'm glad that I can be content with a day now even when I'm seemingly doing less.

Having to use the anti-psychotic medication for the rest of my life too – which I have mixed feelings about, since it does affect the cognitive functioning + side effects – though it's at a lower dosage than in 2010 – 2020~ era. I guess the alternative isn't something I'd want, to have a psychotic episode.


With all the adjustments I've made and more – I haven't had a panic attack the last 2~ years anymore... That is a massive win to me. This makes life more than acceptable to me.
 

Aves

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#5
I feel like I have a disability and I struggle to accept this too. I feel like I’m never going to be able to be a fully independent person. I’m terrified of the thought of anything bad happening to my husband who I rely on far too much, it feels like he’s become more like a carer to me at times. I feel like no matter what I do, I’m always going to be this way and this is something that I find very hard to accept.
 
#6
I find this hard to accept. My MH over the years has taken a battering and has got worse. I feel like I've got limitations. I don't function well outside of work. I don't feel free.

How do you guys feel?
Yes I definitely do. I feel as if I'm a shell of my former self from my younger years. I feel like I have taken so many punches from the world that im no longer in my own body the happiest time for me is when I'm asleep
 
#7
I feel like I have a disability and I struggle to accept this too. I feel like I’m never going to be able to be a fully independent person. I’m terrified of the thought of anything bad happening to my husband who I rely on far too much, it feels like he’s become more like a carer to me at times. I feel like no matter what I do, I’m always going to be this way and this is something that I find very hard to accept.
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I feel the same way even though my husband has a physical (visual) disability and relies on me to handle technology and banking etc. But I rely on him emotionally as he is more steady than I am. I feel like I would be lost without him and it scares me. This is especially scary as we are getting older.
 

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