Yesterday i self harmed, thinking about life but i asked for help on this forum and i have made a doctors appointment to seek medical help. but now...i'm fine. this happens everytime, one moment i am depressed and reaching out for help next day i am wondering what the hell made me like that and feel stupid for acting the way cause i feel fine. I am so confused, i know i will soon get depressed again but at the moment there is no reason for me to go doctors its like that part of me is detached. a distant memory for now i cant remember much of it now i think about it.... :huh: still going docs, forcing myself in all honesty. i know it sounds weird but i rather be depressed all the time then these constant mood swings. its been bugging me all day.