yesterday.... during family night walk where I’ve been dragged my ass too... And while I appreciate there are aunts and cousins that care..... I still find it annoyed how some people won’t leave me alone like first ...
There would be some relatives would berate me about my weight...
They would also berate me about not having a proper job just because I’m turning 27 yo soon this year...
They, however, do not know that I am focusing on recovery and while on recovery, I am actually working on building my own retail, even my parents had no choice but to support me with this for the sake of my health but I don’t tell my relatives much about it cause then I’m pretty sure they’d be sarcastic about it and saying I should be supporting myself, blablabla....
I literaly do come from family of household filled with bad influences when I am trying to past self-blame and guilt.
I have been getting job offers as well recently, sadly, I had no green light to take. I wish I can take it impulsively but I’ve learned my lesson about the consequences and regret that will come after if I don’t listen to doctors advice.
I understand money can be so vital in life and for survival, also on how people define their own success and I am desperate, yes, my health wise is just so frustrating right now that I’d just do starting to feel ‘depress’ for not working.
I’m pretty sure my big sister would be disappointed if she knows this thought pop ups again cause she knows I don’t thrive well under stress and pressure but come’on, I have been feeling withdrawn since doctors advice that bumped me out, detached from not sleeping well and then this yes, starting to feel depress from not working. Augh.
Idk what to do
There would be some relatives would berate me about my weight...
They would also berate me about not having a proper job just because I’m turning 27 yo soon this year...
They, however, do not know that I am focusing on recovery and while on recovery, I am actually working on building my own retail, even my parents had no choice but to support me with this for the sake of my health but I don’t tell my relatives much about it cause then I’m pretty sure they’d be sarcastic about it and saying I should be supporting myself, blablabla....
I literaly do come from family of household filled with bad influences when I am trying to past self-blame and guilt.
I have been getting job offers as well recently, sadly, I had no green light to take. I wish I can take it impulsively but I’ve learned my lesson about the consequences and regret that will come after if I don’t listen to doctors advice.
I understand money can be so vital in life and for survival, also on how people define their own success and I am desperate, yes, my health wise is just so frustrating right now that I’d just do starting to feel ‘depress’ for not working.
I’m pretty sure my big sister would be disappointed if she knows this thought pop ups again cause she knows I don’t thrive well under stress and pressure but come’on, I have been feeling withdrawn since doctors advice that bumped me out, detached from not sleeping well and then this yes, starting to feel depress from not working. Augh.
Idk what to do
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