I've brought this up numerous times but I curious if others have vivid mental images of killing themselves..almost like when we day dream. I had the images of blood flowing from my wrist again today. And it is like a daydream. Like some part of me desires it. I suppose it's my stupidity and the recent choices I seem to keep making. Perhaps it's my death wish. I'm not gonna do it right now but I keep visualizing cutting deep into my wrist with my knife. I hate myself for my choices then I feel like dieing but I keep making bad choices to the point I am stuck in a dangerous situation and I know it. It's almost as if I can't kill myself I'm gonna be sure somebody else does. I'm becoming someone I once fantasized about being.