I've started keeping an informal journal lately, which basically amounts to grabbing a sheet of paper and writing down whatever's on my mind, just before bed. Nothing too strict or organized, just a bit of self-counseling. These days, I'm very troubled. My mind is a maze of uncertainty and overwhelming emotions. Writing stuff down that's for my eyes only has proven very helpful in navigating and understanding some of this complexity. I strongly believe that I have only a few weeks, perhaps months, to live; being at peace with my own mind is one of the final hurdles I want (need?) to overcome before I die. Do any of you cope with your situation by writing just for yourself (not for anyone else to read)? Does it help you become less suicidal, or does it rather help mentally prepare you to die?